purrrs.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Insatiable.

Tell me did I do to deserve all these pain. I gave you everything That I can give. I know what you want though not perfect..but I gave you what I can. You said you needed a break and I gave you one. But I can see its still not good enough for you. I can nvr be good enough..

Monday, July 23, 2012

Vodka.

Oh yea. Self concocted vanilla vodka shot as pain killer to get me through the night.

Ouch? Was that meant to hurt a lot?

I think I'm getting more and more numb each time. Oh yea. Bring it on. Give me more of the nonsense. Don't blame for being angst all the time.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Bottom.

Oh yes. The floor below me just keep caving in. Bring it on. Try and make me fall harder. I will eventually hit Rock bottom and then things will only get better. I don't expect anyone and can't depend on anyone to save me cause "nothing much is going to change in the near future".. So I can only make changes and make things get better by myself for myself.

Missing.

Once again. When I need you most.. You are not here. Not even a slight word of comfort a normal Fren would give or even a fake sign of concern that a normal Fren will attempt to cook up. Sad. Really s-a-d.

"Ok"

That's the best you can do? Seriously??
Why even bother to reply when you don't even have the heart to do so. Is that how you want me to treat you if when in the future you are having the same issues as me now??I believe you want me to do the same ..

Oh yea:. Knife me. Maybe it will hurt lesser.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Stitch with love.

So little time to spare but i have so much love to give. Sharing my love and tears with my little adorable fluffy family members when you are not around.

Thanks love for the penguin Stitchie which I demanded for. Hehehes! It was worth it cause it's just so adorable. I think piggy will accept lil Stitchie.

(Okays. Don't judge. Everyone has a kiddy side of them Hidden somewhere inside them.)

Thanks for the dragonfly necklace too.
Love it cause it's from love and he told me the meaning behind it which is so sweet.

I asked "how come there are two dragonflies?"
He told me "cause one cannot live without the other.."

Awwww.. So sweet! I don't know whether he's bluffing me again (cause he likes to bully me as I'm super gullible).. But I decide to believe him and happily wears the necklace. After hearing what he said makes me wanna wear the necklace 24-7 if I could (If only it won't tarnish).

Treasures every moment I have with you..

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Silent tears.

Be strong leepeng.

You will be vindicated one day.

Miles apart still.

I was so excited to see you.
Went the long journey for you just to not waste a single moment with you. Expected a big hug. But none. You seems to be rushing home.
I should not be greedy. Being able to see you and hold you tight is good enough. And I guess you were tired too and can't wait to get home and rest.

Leepeng. Stop being greedy. Know what you are worth. Stop asking for more than you deserve and be more freaking understanding can. And stop pissing him off when he already have so much things on his mind. Don't be a freakin add on burden to him anymore.

But I really miss you.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Sometimes.

The fatigue is much worst than running a marathon, a few days of shift work, a stressful day at work. much more painful than cutting own flesh out or getting into an accident. At least you know at some point your wounds will heal but if your heart is bleeding emotionally. It's hard to tell when the pain will end.


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